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The Disillusionment of Me

I wasn’t gonna blog about this since its pop culture and politics, and the internet just hates people with opinions, but then I realized that this is my blog I can say what ever the heck I want on it.

Everyone just kinda got sad all at the same time last night. In case you didn’t hear the news, George Zimmerman was found not guilty of murdering Trayvon Martin, and actor Corey Monteith (from Glee) was found dead in his hotel room. This post is not about any of these men. This post is not about my political views, or about substance abuse. This post is about my random, and barely coherent thoughts after everything that happened in what seemed to be a very short amount of time.

This may sound a little naive, but I started this month (Ramadan) thinking Oh this is a holy month! Lots of good things are gonna happen this month, and its a great way to end the summer. And nothing bad could possibly happen because its a holy month! I just thought…well, I got my hopes up. I thought George Zimmerman would go to jail, and this whole Egypt thing would get somewhat better, and for a month everyone would be a little more religious [including me]. I didn’t expect anything to go wrong. I thought I was going to be in a lovely little Ramadan bubble where nothing bad ever happens.

Is that stupid of me to think? I think it is. I mean, I suppose the whole world can’t stop just because its Ramadan. That would probably defeat the whole purpose. Ramadan is about testing yourself and feeling empathy for those who struggle and bettering yourself because of it. There are always going to be bad people on this earth no matter what time of the year it is, and people will always be battling their own demons. Sometimes they serve as a reminder to us that we should be good. And I guess sometimes we get reminded of all this in ways that we aren’t prepared for.

I think I’ve just been disillusioned or something.
Is this realization that life is unfair and imperfect my initiation into the real world? If so, I think I’ll have to politely decline. I’m perfectly fine in my little bubble of sarcasm and faux ignorance.

***if this post made no sense, I apologize, but bare in mind that this was written at 4am after sehri and a somewhat deep conversation with a friend.

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